installation week

sounds more glamourous than it is, am basically hanging around this place waiting and waiting and wwwaaaaiiiting some more

waking up in the middle of the night

somehow she cannot sleep- it is smack deep in the middle of the night, 2:35, she thinks about her piece that will be in the gradshow- a substandard piece somewhere on the 4th floor of the art school, one of 300, not one of the better ones though, 3-4 books on a chair, nothing moviong, no sound, just an inanimate object, it is not what she usually does, she always shows animations, so, basically makes a show, totally performance art, here, though she will put something there and leave, it will just stand there in the studiospace and start a life of its own without her mediating it or gaging the viewers' response- oh well, that is how it is

paintingstudio

so she is sitting in the painting studio, while this siren is deafening her, wait, it stopped, it is ten oh nine in the morning, monday, april fourish, all her lockerstuff is lying behind her on the black and white checkered sofa, her lock is in her purse, she can put her stuff in her car, that's it for her in this art school, @ least for this semester, she dropped her classes, no homework is due, which kind of pisses her off, no final essays, no final presentations, no exams, it is utterly weird and surreal, she could put her stuff in the grad show or she can do it next year, she only needs one more course to graduate, somehow she does not really understand the rules and regulations of this place and the funny thing is that no one seems to understand them, every time she asks she gets totally conflicting info, basically 180 degrees apart, which kind of lets her to the conclusion that she should just do her own thing, her work resides in cyberspace anyways, somewhere in the clouds, how so very artistic, i am too dumb to produce something tangible, but, hey. it resides in outer space, in my mind- maybe that can pass for being creative, if nothing else works- and @ this time nothing else seems to work- she watches the crowd walking by outside of the painting studio and tries to wrap this up-should look @ the show in the brow